Witty Quote I Have Not Yet Written

On Growing Up

I don’t wanna grow up, I’m a Toys R Us kid
they got a million toys at Toys R us that I can play with
I don’t wanna grow up, I’m a Toys R Us kid
they got the best for so much less, it’ll really flip your lid
From bikes to trains to video games
it’s the biggest toy store there is (gee whiz!)
I don’t wanna grow up, cause maybe if I did
I couldn’t be a Toys R Us kid
more games, more toys, oh boy!
I wanna be a Toys R Us kid

Do you remember this commercial theme song? I do. I remember it with a feeling of longing, a desire to stay 5 years old forever. We had a beautiful home on a beautiful double plot in a small town in southern Idaho. No white picket fences lined our street, which was just fine because my great grandma lived next door, my best friends lived next to her, and my cousins lived two houses further down.

Across the street was a lovely old lady every one called Grandma Elaine and her husband, a quiet old vet who we could always watch TV with.

Did you want to grow up as a kid? Would you have wanted to? I didn’t.

But, alas, I did. My best friends have families of their own, my great grandma succumbed to cancer, and two of my cousins from down the street have┬ápassed away entirely too young. One was the victim of an IED in Afghanistan, the other was the victim of survivor’s guilt and drugs.

The house that I remember as a delightful place looks worn down, the fruit trees that supplied an entire neighborhood with sweet pickings from July-October are all chopped down. And I have grown up. I didn’t want to, but it happened anyway.

Now, what do I do with my grown-up years? Because, they will pass much quicker to my mind’s eye than the first 5 years of my life, as the first 6 years of my son’s life feel like a single season of childhood.

I will embrace the joy of maturity, the growth of pain, and the hope that growth does not end in death. Death is merely the final transition into eternal life, and I hope in the one who died that we might have life in Him.

Growing older involves pain, and life is not all pears, honeysuckle, and columbine. But, there are many joyful moments on the road of life, and moments that we would not give up for all the world.

I count the moments that make maturing worth the journey,

the moment I held my son and my daughter for the first time, learning to make love to my wife, every day my business pays its own bills, every time I serve a new client.

Really, the grown-up life is more full and richer than anything I could have imagined at 5 years old. But, I do have to remember to embrace the living of it. You never know when you will get the call for your loved ones. You never know when it will be your turn next. Life is so fast, so fleeting, and so fragile, it takes a quiet soul resting in the deep waters of the Infinite Time to truly enjoy and embrace life as a maturing human being in its finest.